Chrissy Teigen has said she feels “lost” and “depressed” after being placed in what she called the “cancel club” following allegations of online bullying.
The American model and TV personality had in June apologised for past tweets, including one in which she told Courtney Stodden, TV star, to take her own life.
Stodden had accepted the apology but said it could just be an attempt to limit the damage to Teigen’s reputation.
The mother-of-two, who is a wife to John Legend, US singer, however, spoke of the allegations against her in a recent Instagram post.
“I don’t really know what to say, just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world,”
“But feel like utter shit in real life. Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race. But I do know that however, I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer.
“I feel lost and need to find my place again. I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay. I’m not used to any other way! Cancel club is a fascinating thing.”
“I have learned a whole lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know till you’re in it. And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously, you sound whiney when you’ve done something wrong,” she added.
“It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow. All I know is I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just. Tired of being sick with myself all day.
“I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart but I dunno.
“I can’t do this silent shit anymore! If you or someone you know has also been canceled please let me know if there is a canceled club reunion because I could use some time off my couch!”